this is mostly about me resisting love not because of "oh, I'm unworthy!". more because of what I'll give up. intellectually I know that I lose nothing by allowing myself to be loved - by God, by others - and that as a matter of fact, I'll actually gain, and others will gain, too. Only goodness. Only… Continue reading resisting love
In my experience. To heal our hearts, and consequently, our whole person, to bring all of us into the light, the Holy Spirit will present different things to us, in His timing, when we can listen. A memory, a hurt, a sin, a good moment - something we've "buried" in our deep subconscious - 'wound… Continue reading Into the light
Because if I don't make myself, my "instinct" is to cut back on food. Or, terribly, to eat what's likely a normal amount, Genuinely, having too much food in my stomach causes anxiety sometimes. I'm sure some doctors would say that that's a physiological reaction, and I'm sure it has physiological symptoms, but I'm pretty… Continue reading I make myself eat every three hours.
I'm waiting to get my car fixed after being told multiple times I should consider writing a blog thinking how stupid it feels to write down stupid insights over things a million other people have already probably realized and do I really need to add one more voice to the melee. Anyway, I am writing because… Continue reading Afraid to care
It's really easy to not be authentic. Which is an overused word, for some. But words are real, words ought to have a real connection to *real* reality. Authentic mean something. Authenticity is honesty about *who* you are. It isn't rudeness, or arrogance. It's being simple. Present. Without agenda. Real. It's very easy to fall… Continue reading To be “myself”
The full text of the honors newsletter post for FUS grads ____ So, (a friend) asked me to run a little news “column” for fun here in the Honors Newsletter (which somehow feels like writing for the DC multiverse) addressing news from our perspective as Honors Students (which I don’t know how well I can… Continue reading News from the perspective of merciful love
Recently, a lot of people have asked what I like to do. Specifically, adults. And usually, I look down and don't really say anything - usually I try to sit down and shut up - because I feel embarrassed about being contrary, but listen, I don't actually like to do anything, so stop asking. I… Continue reading In defense of eye-contact